Daggers and papercuts

‘Tis when happiness and sadness collide
Like oil and water combined
Is it possible to be happily sad?

‘Tis when you put me in my place
And courageously say it to my face
Is it me or are you pushing me away?

Like daggers to my heart
Like papercuts on my skin
When you pushed me far, when I hold your hand
When you set a frown when I touch your face

They were my little happiness
To look at the lips I cannot kiss
To see the hands I cannot touch
To utter the name I eternally miss
To yearn for the embrace I’ve dreamed so much
But they all came with daggers and papercuts
But they were my little happiness

When jealousy seeps in through my veins
For every man who has your time
When my heart shall take hold of the reins
Silently whispering, wishing you to be mine
Like daggers and papercuts
Like tears in the rain

But I’m weirdly happy, happily sad
Like daggers and papercuts

Buwan

Di ko namalayan, paa’y tumahak ng di batid na landas
Hanggang ako’y balutan ng ilaw mong, sa langit ay katas
Sa aking pag mulat, di maialis ang mga mata
Tumitingin, Minamasdan, ng puso kong dati’y malaya

Sabihin mo, anong gayuma ang iyong binigay,
Pilit ako’y lumalapit, gaya ng pag abot sayo ng alon ng dagat

O buwan, ano ang nais mo sa iyong habag na lingkod?

Sa aking mga kamay, nanliliit kung sayo'y ikumpara ,
Ngunit ninais ko pa ring sila'y minsa’y magkatagpo
Sa aking pagtangis, humihingi na muli’y ika'y masilayan pa
Nagsusumamo, nagdarasal, hanggang sa puso’y mahapo

Ngunit sa pagsikat ng araw, ikaw ay tila namaalam,
Nangungusap na mga mata, sanay akin ka na lamang

Oh buwan, oh buwan... sana'y akin ka na lamang

Peb 10. Penumbral Lunar Eclipse. Sa aking pag tingala sa buwang kay ganda. Ngiti ang batid, sa kaalamang may isang parehas na nagmamasid. Malayo ma’y iisa ang pinagmamasdan.

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(Don't worry Jon, I made or rather tried making an English translation)

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Somehow, I find my feet, going to a place I’ve never travelled.
Suddenly, your faint beautiful light softly embraced me,
Why I can’t take my eyes off of you, how I marvel
Mesmerized, unmoving, my heart that was once free

What spell have you cast upon me,
As I draw nearer to you like the tides of sea.

Oh moon, what am I to do with you?

Oh moon, what fate do I have with you?

My hands suddenly looked small next to yours,
But as I imagined them together, locked, intertwined
I find myself asking, hoping that I can have you more
Longing, feeling, until my heart shall finally resign

But lo! You bid good bye, for the sun soon shall shine,
Alas, my eyes have cried, wishing for you to be mine

Oh moon, why can’t you stay with me now?

Oh moon, why can't we be together now?

Feb 10. Penumbral Lunar Eclipse. I raise my head and smiled, knowing that somewhere someone can see the same moon that I am seeing. With that small thought, that small connection, I finally curl up to sleep… purrrr…

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Thank you moon for your understanding. Thank you for still being there.

Hands of Time (Pause muna from blogging)

I apologize for the lack of new post. I've been extremely busy lately. Last 14 of Feb, I watched Dulaang Sibol's Sinta in Ateneo, worked the whole day of Friday, then on the 16th, watched Hamlet then went out till the wee hours of the morning, just for coffee. Today, just went from Batangas to visit some relatives.
So, for now, I leave you first one of my highschool compositions (naalala ko kasi nung nanuod ako ng Hamlet). Be kind people, remember highschool pako nito. hahaha

Hands of Time

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For my own pillar, tie I gave my tongue

Did I not utter things, I'd like to say?

A word, with letters - four, when I was young

Shall I regret just acts in everyday?

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In thee a lecher, granted did I took

for my rebellion, purport so uncouth

Yet solaced ardor, havened in my nook

But still no words came out for me to soothe

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And now thou's bed, a purfling pallid white

The love I'll lose in time, and fears to face

Relive and cherish, things I've done so trite

Have hands not stopped, I'll do the mass of ways

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And so if time consents the chance on me

And so must say the love i have for thee

Hands of Time by Jeff Gonzales

Submitted to sir Dids